here is where i'm at; gargantuan moments of self-reflection to follow

All my life I've been considered incredibly independent. But what I've realized is that I have been completely dependent on other people making me angry. As long as someone else is telling me what to do, I thrive by doing the opposite, or doing more than they thought possible. I've always had something to prove. So for the past couple years as society simply expects me to get on with life on my own without the challenge of being told what to do, I have been sinking. I've been waiting for something to happen to me, rather than figuring out what I want to happen, and working for it. I have nothing to fight against except myself, and that fight gets boring very fast.
Starting now, I am going to look for my fire and work my ass off to get what I want.
I have always loved this line "Though she be but little, she be fierce."
What do I want?
I have to figure that one out too.

I decided not to write anything until I had saved up some more important thoughts... but now I can't think of anything profound to say.
I'm thinking of switching universities: at Canadian Mennonite University in Winnipeg I could study IDS and Disaster Recovery.
I decided that I am a pacifist.
I've also been thinking about nursing. Up to this point, I didn't want to become a nurse because I thought it would be awful to marry a doctor and then raise a family and succumb to the stereotype. I am obviously prejudiced. Anyways I would do it, so that I can work for the Red Cross or something similar, in war zones.
wheeeeeeee
hello
That's about it, really.