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Post Number 40

i've just been looking through my old blog.. and i found this post which i thought was quite funny. this is from grade 10. i was so young and innocent then. hehe


"The Wrong Schroeder

I am at an interesting stage in life. I'm not quite sure I want to be where I am right now.
Firstly, my love life. This might be kind of confusing. My school put on the musical Charlie Brown, and there were two casts because the musical only needs 6 actors and they wanted to cast a lot more. So there are two actors for each part. I have a crush on one of the actors. One who plays Schroeder. Now, the big problem is, is that the other actor that plays Schroeder has a crush on me. The first Schroeder(the one I have a crush on), seems to like me, but it's hard to tell because I don't really know him that well... He has been talking to me more lately, and my friend says that he watches me when I play the cello. This is good, except every time I am in his presence, I say or do something really stupid, so he probably has the wrong idea of me. Now the other Schroeder(the one I don't like), is very obviously crazy for me and its starting to get really frustrating. I don't know how to put him off me without being mean. Honestly, after spending time with him, my mood is always really grumpy and I feel like I want to strangle him. What do I do? How can you tell when a guy likes you, and is it okay to for a girl to ask a guy out? (I probably never would. Been there, done that, totally embarresing)
The other thing, is that people are starting to expect a whole lot more out of me. I am starting to feel the stress and pressure of being a reliable, responsible young adult and I like the feeling sometimes but hate it most of the time. This coincides with the fact that the drama director has asked me if I would like to write the sound track, or help write it, for next years play. An adapted play version of Les Mis. My instinct is to cry NOOOOO! but my smart side says, hey, GREAT opportunity. You'll regret saying no. So I am going to say yes, but AHHHHHH!! How can I write a sound track when I have barely written any music before?? Crazily enough, I expect that I am the most reasonable student to ask in our school because I know all about the Romantic period of music and am quite musical enough. I expect my mom will help me a lot. My idea is to take the Romantic style of music, and jazz it up with guitars, cello, piano, flute, drums and whatever other instruments the director wants.
I also need to really get into a routine for running, as I am planning on running the 10k in July.

Maddy - An adapted song written for Liz who came up with the idea, and it fits me perfectly.
Sung by The Wrong Schroeder to music played on the cello by Maddy

D'ya know something, Maddy?
I think the way you play the cello is nice.
D'ya know something else?
It's always been my dream that I'd marry a girl who plays the cello.

At parties she'd play something nice like "April Showers."
I'm sure you could play something nice like "April Showers,"
Or even "Frere Jacques."
Beethoven's nice too.

Just imagine
What would you think if someday you and I should get married?
Wouldn't you like that if someday we two should get married? (maddy shakes head while still playin on the cello)

My Aunt Marion was right, never try to discuss marriage with a musician.


..... so that's my life...."

#1: Flower on a Wall (Rachel's creative thingy/week thing)

Musical response to: Does your cat have a moustache? by.. a group.



appologies for the tremulous voice... haven't been practicing enough.

armageddon

YESTERDAY:
literally two feet away from breaking my back at a set of street lights
one exam away from being done highschool FOREVER
is the end of the world just around the corner?

ps. how can music be posted on a blog???



I want a bob.

defn: Humbleness

Humbleness is a logical response to grace in our life.

You realize, My goodness, look what God has done to me! I didn't deserve anything! But see what he's done for me!
And you are overwhelmed with gratitude. Now, when you are filled with gratitude, you are focusing on somebody else, on Jesus, and what he has done for you, and not on yourself. Pride focuses on self. So when you experience grace, automatically the logical response is humility, because you realize, God has been so good to me. Now, because you realize that you don't deserve anything, then everything you get is a bonus, from God. And then you are not angry when someone else gets what you think you should be getting. You are not angry about it, because you know God has been so good to me! He's going to look after me! You are so happy that God has lifted you up, that you have a new aim in life, and that is to lift others up. Just like Jesus lifted me up, now I am going to lift other people up.

Romans 12:10
Outdo one another in showing honour.

You know, this is a very competitive society, and people are trying to push others down so as to go up. What Christians do is the exact opposite. We are competing with people to put them up. We put them up, so that God can be glorified by them. You know, this is the happiest way to live. When people are not a threat to you, it is a happy way to live. You realize, Jesus has lifted me up, and now I am going to lift others up! Let Jesus honor me when he wants to honour me, that's his business. I know he looks after me.

- Ajith Fernando

you say you want a resolution

They say it takes three weeks to break a habit.